It Was Always You


I was a lucky girl…working in higher education for many years as a faculty member, counselor and as an administrator.  No matter which role I was in, providing support gave me purpose. Gave me joy.

Teaching is difficult, not just in the moment, but because it’s impossible to know how each student’s life story unfolds.  When we’re fortunate, former students stay in touch but it’s an uncommon treat to catch up.  Sometimes the updates come in the form of reference requests or letters of recommendation.  I love that and I’ve written about the glorious opportunities I’ve had to highlight and endorse former students. 

Every now and again, a former student reaches out with one intention only – just to give thanks.  When that happens, I’ll be honest…I skim the email to see if there’s an ‘ask’ associated with the gratitude.  I think it’s my task-minded brain.  Yes, yes – you’re welcome – but what can I do for you now, I wonder? Not in an impatient way – but from an excited, whoo-hoo…an opportunity to sing praises? When, why, how?

When the outreach has the singular intent to say I made a difference, I shudder a little.  I don’t like praise and truth be told, it makes me a little uncomfortable.  It’s not me….I think.  It’s YOU…it was always YOU.  But then I remember… 

When I’ve done my best work, I’m the guide and the mirror all in one.  I might be the one highlighting the path, the possibilities, but I’m also pointing to the inherent, ever-present potential within.  I like to think I’m just channeling Glenda, of Good Witch fame….”You’ve always had the power my dear, you just had to learn it for yourself.”  Thank you…for the thank you but Glenda’s right.  It was always you.

-Vicki 😊

A little more?  Check out my post on Heart of the Matter for a moment of magic…from a former student and her gift of courage to her younger brother.  She always had the power within and nope. No ruby slippers were required.



43 responses to “It Was Always You”

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  2. It’s a privilege to work with students, and such a rewarding bonus when you know you helped to make a difference.

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    1. Thanks, dear Kathleen…and I know very well just how much impact you had…love you for your big helping heart and wisdom. xo! 😘

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  3. It truly is a calling.

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    1. I love that, VJ. Yes — I agree! 🥰

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  4. Thanks so much for the reminder, Glenda! 😃

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    1. My pleasure, dear one, my pleasure! 🥰🥰🥰

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  5. Your students were lucky to have you, Vicki. I have seen recommendation letters that looked like they’d been completed as quickly as possible.

    The job of writing them, is almost universally seen as difficult if one is to make them specific enough to be of value. For me, when I was a prof., the most challenging were those written for students who were unremarkable. Still, it is a courtesy, a responsibility, and an honor to be asked.

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    1. Thank you, Dr. Stein. What a lovely way of describing it…an honor to be asked…and you’re right…there are times it’s hard to conjure up genuine, heartfelt accolades…those letters are more challenging…and I end up visiting, if I can with former students to tease out nuggets of new info or to help me recall details in a more meaningful way. I agree…as someone who did a good bit of hiring along the way, reading formulaic letters annoyed me greatly. Don’t do it if you’re not going to do your best, I’d think. 😉😉😉

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    As a former elementary teacher of 31 years, I greatly identify with this post. I’ve been retired for six years, but I frequently run into prior students since I live in the same city where I taught. At the end of each school year, one of my traditions was to give out my address in the hopes that I would hear from some of my students. Many assured me they’d write but likely misplaced the address by the end of the day. Out of sight, out of mind. Yet, I typically would get a couple of letters each summer, which I would respond to. I’ve managed to stay in touch with many of my former students over the years via Facebook primarily.

    One wrote me last week and sent me a note saying she’d accepted a job as a 4th-grade teacher next year. (I had taught her in 6th grade.) Over the summer, I plan to meet her for breakfast and pass on some teaching materials. I taught at the same school throughout my career and had several 2nd-generation students. It is the most bizarre feeling to have a parent-teacher conference with one of your prior students, who is now a parent. I taught with one former 4th-grade student for the last five years of my career. I called these the delayed rewards of teaching. It sounds like you’ve had plenty of similar experiences, Vickie.

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    1. Oh how I love all that you shared here, Pete! Amazing experiences…and what enduring gifts from your former students — especially being able to teach with one. Wow! Big smiles to you this morning. 🥰🙂🥰

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  7. How special when as an adult, no matter what the career or background, you find that you have made an impact in a child’s or younger persons life. Helping to open their eyes to a new discovery, rather that be outside of themselves or as an internal realization is carried deeply with both lives going forward. I say feel all the happiness and pride in being that catalyst and spark in someone else’s life 🙂

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    1. Thank you for that, Deb. You’re right — having impact occurs beyond the boundaries of professions. What a marvelous point! 🥰 And your use of the word “catalyst”? So, so good. ❤️

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    2. I agree with Deb, Vicki. It’s such an honour to have an made an impact on a person’s life, and so rare that we actually get to hear about it. Yes, they earned their own success but you must have said or done just the right thing at just the right time, probably many times over, and that is no small thing. My work in adult education was as a grant writer and project coordinator. Our programs enabled adults with low literacy skills to learn to read and write. I expect that many adults learned to read because of the grants I helped obtain but I am never going to hear about it so I will never know for sure. It’s a gift, they have given you, letting you know your efforts on their behalf weren’t for naught 🙂💕💕💕

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      1. Thank you for all of that, Patti. Grant writing…for adult education…all of that makes my heart sing! My grant writer friends were so precious…and kind-hearted…and whip smart about how to find funds. I bet you were among the best, best, best – given what I know about your big heart. 💓💓💓 And you’re right. What a gift to get that full-circle feedback every now and then. Rare and wonderful. Sending big hugs to you, dear one! 🥰🥰🥰

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        1. Sending them back, dear Vicki 🙂💕🙏

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  8. A mirror and a guide – two things you do SOOO well. I know praise is uncomfortable but your ability to see people really is remarkable and it sets you up to be exceptional in the roles you live. Beautiful and inspirational post, dear Vicki!!

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    1. Oh geez…you’ve got me. Thanks, Wynne. That’s such a lovely thing to hear – truly – but I still believe I’m just a great echo when I’m at my best. xo to you, dear one! 🥰

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  9. Like Wynne, “I’m the guide and the mirror all in one” really stuck be as so YOU! Sometimes just showing up as your authentic self and interacting with honesty and good intention is enough to make a huge difference in someone’s life. What a gift it is to be remembered and to have former students reach out simple to thank you. 🥰

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    1. I’m not a person who blushes easily, but gosh darn it, Erin. I think my cheeks are getting rosy…all this good stuff. 😘 I’m with you…it’s great to be remembered…sometimes for the smallest of kindnesses. A great reminder…every moment matters. xo! 💕

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  10. I treasure the few teachers who inspired me. I also looked at several of my children’s teachers who were amazing with awe. Especially their second grade teacher who did cartwheels in the front of the class and taught them at such a higher level than an ordinary second grade. She let them excel at their own pace.

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    1. Ohhh….”excel at their own pace”. Sounds like a key characteristic of a terrific teacher. And the cartwheels? Wowza. That’s really something! Way to inspire and keep the students on the edge of their seats! Thanks for sharing, Elizabeth! 😘

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      1. I was privileged to volunteer once a week sitting in the back of the room grading papers. The cartwheels got everyone’s attention!

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        1. As they should’ve — wow, wow, wow! 😎🥰😎

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  11. This afternoon I met with my former French lecturer for coffee. I graduated in 2001 and all these years later we still meet once or twice a year for coffee or lunch. She was always there for me when I returned to.study as a mature student. She believed in me when I doubted myself and its people like her, setting an example, to be the lecturer I am today.

    People like Joy, and you, dear Vicki, are the ones who leave lasting impressions

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    1. What a beautiful thing to say, Brenda. Thank you so very much! I love that you’ve stayed in touch with someone so impactful in your life. Having someone near who believes in us when we feel vulnerable means the world, doesn’t it? Thank you so much for sharing. 🥰❤️🥰

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  12. Aww, you deserve the praise Vicki! Yes you’re the guide and mirror, but you’re still playing a huge role. I suspect my background may be similar to some of your students. I never expected to have the chance to go to college, forget about earning a degree and then having a chance to get my masters. When I step back and see some of the teachers who helped along the way, I have nothing but gratitude for them in showing me the way, that I could make it happen. The praise is well earned Vicki.

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    1. Well…still…I think goodness sits within…we just need to be kind enough…and sometimes patient enough…to help one another find it. I can be very good at burying my own good intentions! Thank you, Brian! 🥰

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  13. Oh, I love your attitude. Actually, it helps me. I teach adults these days (creative writing) and so many of my students thank me for opening them up to themselves, through their writing. I’m very shy about accepting any thanks, because as you say, THEY’RE the ones who did the work. But I love the idea of being the guide and the mirror. Beautiful way of expressing what we do – which is to help our students be the best of themselves.

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    1. I love that my ramblings make sense to you, Pam — for all the same reasons! Yes, yes! Our students DO the work, we just get to encourage and then sit in awe. Thank you for sharing that you connect with the ‘guide and mirror’ sensibility. I appreciate your feedback! xo! 🥰

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  14. When I’ve done my best work, I’m the guide and the mirror all in one — yes, yes, yes. I taught in an active physical setting (the operating room) and balanced a lot of hats at once, including and most importantly giving my patients the best care possible. I was the GOAT and apparently they still say WWBD — what would Bernie do. It warms my heart as I am sure it does yours.

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    1. Oh my goodness — I LOVE that! WWBD! I can only imagine. Someone as kind and savvy as you are, Bernie…irreplaceable…I’m sure that was you. Thanks much for sharing that my musings made sense to you. That means a lot. Big hugs! 🥰

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  15. Teachers are caring souls. When my first daugther was born 23 years ago, a card showed up in my mailbox when she was a few months old. It was from my high school French teacher. One of my other high school French teachers had seen the birth announcement in the paper and told her. She tracked down my address and sent a card. She had retired and moved to Kentucky but she still remembered me as one of her “star students”. We stayed in touch for years after that until she sadly passed away a few years ago. That experience made me realize the role students play in their teacher’s lives. As students, we don’t often give it much thought.

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    1. What a beautiful experience, Michelle! Thank you so much for sharing. I had a beloved first grade teacher, Mrs. Taylor, and we managed to stay in touch as a pen pals for twenty years. It was magical…but I didn’t realize how much so until she passed away. Outreach from precious people who were on our path is such a gift. I love that the French teachers banded together to share your good news…resulting in the card you received. 💗 Wow. Big hugs to you this morning! 🥰

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  16. “I’m the guide and the mirror all in one.” Just wow. What a beautiful perspective.

    I chuckled reading about the ask. I remember those letters, the asks, and the rare occasion it was just a thank you. Is it the discomfort of receiving an unexpected gift with nothing for us to offer in return? Their success is always the greatest reward.

    Lovely!

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    1. Thank you so much, Maggie. Yes! Success…bearing witness and seeing it unfold? That’s the best! 🥰

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  17. My apologies for this barely related comment, but the title made me think of one of my favorite Chet Baker songs.

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    1. Wow…stunning…thanks for sharing…and it’s not barely related at all…I kept thinking about the song…I think the title is “It Had to Be You” when I was writing the post…thanks for bringing Chet along. I love it! 🥰🥰🥰

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  18. “I’m the guide and the mirror all in one” – love that intention! And through your teaching you have made the world a much better place one student at a time, and that is a beautiful gift!

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    1. You humble me with your generous feedback, Mary! Thank you. 🥰❤️🥰

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